"Defiant one that haunts me so" Poem from 12-3-2002

 My love for you is so unconditional sweet girl.

I sit here still, always holding you.

Watching you torture yourself with the same old illusions.

It is clear, there is no escaping this place.

And you tell me this is a gift?

Why must you ignore me when I tell you there is no problem?

So far away you are.

Come back to me.

Relentless are you in these moments of fear.

Too busy wrapping around it, letting it win.

So aware of the truth, and yet you still choose to participate in this madness.

Then stillness follows after the storm.

And you embrace me, yet once again.

Surrendering to the truth that is always and only you.  

~by Jennifer Byrd Rubacky

12-3-2002